Thursday, November 26, 2009

It Has Come To This

I started this blog, as a mean to channel my frustration . Yes, I admit. Embarrassingly it was one of those attention seeking blog that starts out from the whole, fallin out of 'love' phase. Heck, I know its sad.

but

I'd like to think that it has sumwhat served/serving its purpose which ultimately is to not forget, but move on. And over the course of writing these pathetic posts i've come to realise i dont want this place to be a glommy one. I want it to be a happy one. A place to share some good music, some laughs and u know, stuffs like that. Catch mi drift dontcha?

but

Sadly, i am miserably failing at evolving this place to a happy one. As of lately, things have become much harder. Put aside the non existing social life. Being away from home, the serious procrastination, the inability to focus. Getting old like this is seriously doin much harm to the insides of my head like how suicide doesnt seem like a bad idea at all. Rest assured tho, for it will remain as just a thought and this dude hasnt the guts to pull of sumthing like that. That may very well be the reason i am lookin foward to 2012.

fck

I'm doin it again. I inadvertently fall into this depressive state, and it'd only gets worse as i progress, and for that reason i shall stop now.

U'd say, Great, another jiwang post.
I'd say(with a frown), Yes la. I'm full aware that its SAD.

but,

this, c'mon now.






tt.

4 comments:

Ninja said...

I'm sorry you're going thru such a hard time babe. Really hope you'll feel better soon. If you can, please try to pick up this book : You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L Hay. It helped me with my depression

*hugs*

Thevan said...

u are so nice! thanx for the gesture.. and i will keep my eyes open for that book.

preetigurl@hotmail.com said...

dude..saw ur pics at fb/frensters..
seriously, i think im in love iwth ur hair..
i know this sounds insensitive even, seeing this post and all, bt i have to say this..i truly truly adore ur hair ;)
Cheers~

Anonymous said...

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